5am...

I waited nearly a week for a 200 dollar check and its gone.. you always imagine what you're gonna do with the money when you get paid, then reality hits you quick. You owe this, you owe that, everythings late..

I just can't seem to get ahead.. it is so depressing. I wish my son's dad wasn't such a mother fucker.. a sergeant in the army making now 4,000 a month, yet can't afford to help with my son's finances... bullshit. I make 800. What the Hell am I supposed to do with that? I can barely support myself, but with a child?

We went back to court and my child support is most definitely going up.. just gotta wait for it. I don't really have a choice.

Anyway, just needed to vent. Put 50 down on my car payment that's now 3+ months overdue. It just got to me a little.. I love my son, but I'm not used to this kind of living. Sometimes, I wonder if any of this is worth it. If I could turn back time, I'm not sure I would do any of this again.. atleast not this way.  

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

So, I'm back..

Well, it has been about a year since my last post. Welcome back to me!

I haven't really been up to anything new. My business was not very successful, but I still have the website up. School is stressful, naturally. Work sucks, obviously. Had some man problems, of course.

Things now are starting to fall back into place after the big bang destroyed the little bit I had going for me before. I'm single and about as happy as a hungry, poor, 22 year old thousands of dollars in debt can be :D

I don't have a lot of time, but I will try to blog more often and keep people up to date on what I disturbingly call "life".

Please, check out my site if you get a chance. I have added a "donations" button. If you don't like my merchandise (I will be updating that very soon), you can still send me money through PayPal. I'm poor, hungry, and can barely afford gas to get me to school and work everyday. Stop sending your money to nameless "Christian" charity foundations where you don't even know where your money is going. Instead, send your charity my way where you can see it being put to good use!!