5am...

I waited nearly a week for a 200 dollar check and its gone.. you always imagine what you're gonna do with the money when you get paid, then reality hits you quick. You owe this, you owe that, everythings late..

I just can't seem to get ahead.. it is so depressing. I wish my son's dad wasn't such a mother fucker.. a sergeant in the army making now 4,000 a month, yet can't afford to help with my son's finances... bullshit. I make 800. What the Hell am I supposed to do with that? I can barely support myself, but with a child?

We went back to court and my child support is most definitely going up.. just gotta wait for it. I don't really have a choice.

Anyway, just needed to vent. Put 50 down on my car payment that's now 3+ months overdue. It just got to me a little.. I love my son, but I'm not used to this kind of living. Sometimes, I wonder if any of this is worth it. If I could turn back time, I'm not sure I would do any of this again.. atleast not this way.  

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

on the couch..

Watching this movie, "the midnight meat train" with this greek yogurt mask on my head. Its kinda gruesome; the movie, not the hair mask..

As far as the yogurt goes, I decided to wash my hair with my loreal sulfate free reconstructive shampoo, then applied the yogurt, olive oil, fenugreek mix..

This movie though, is kinda creepy.. not sure what to think. Micah went to bed super early, so thought I'd finally watch this thing.. might have a little drink to compliment the movie.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,

holysht, that's me!

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,

holysht, that's me!

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

CG wk 3, day something.

My mom came up to me a couple of days ago and started playing around in my hair, then she says "ooh, its like super tight coils".. I almost wanted to say duh, but not too long ago I didn't have.a clue what my natural hair was like either.. she then asked me why I don't get those twists in it, which I responded with "because I don't have twists money, nor do I have the patience to do it myself". My main concern now is growth, not style. 4inches is not enough for someone as lazy as I am to worry about styling lol.

Just by looking, I can't tell a great difference in definition, not to say there isn't one, but I can definitely feel where my coils and naps are more clumped and sturdy.. yea, that sounds like a good adjective

In other news, today/yesterday was.christmas. yea, it kinda sucked. Not much to say really, then I went to work. Just getting home now. Too tired to enjoy a self pity party, but feel I should chug down a few celebratory shots since I'm childless for the night.. grr.

Back to hair for a moment, I have been slacking on the GHE. I don't use oils or anything since I cowash my hair practically everyday. I think that's the classic way of doing the GHE. There are a lot of modified ways to do everything.

I guess that's enough for now. I'm tired. 

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

Curly girl: week 2 day 2

Can I just mention really quick, my hair has so many fewer knots, its ridiculous. I know that didn't make much sense, but I haven't had to comb my hair in a week.. ok, to be fair I never really combed my hair before, but even finger combing/detangling is so quick. I basically just detangle as I'm cowashing.. granted, my hair is still significantly short.

I'm not sure but I think my hair is also more elastic.. but it does feel like there's a film on it. That could be from the olive oil spray I made.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

Curly girl/GHE: week 2 day 1

I know I'm all over the place with this one.



My first week doing the curly girl has been ok. I stopped using the tresseeme split remedy and actually, I've stopped using anything in my hair outside of conditioner and a little oil. I have definitely noticed my hair is beginning to feel softer and moisturized longer. I can't tell if its doing anything for curl definition, but I suppose that'll come later. I just want to say though, I don't expect it to fo much for my afro and scab hairs. I just don't believe there is any way to permanently change your curl pattern without force of tools and chemicals. If that's your goal, then you're going to be disappointed. You can't make define curls that don't exist.

I've also been baggying my hair every night to help promote growth, moisture and length retention. Some people complain about a smell, but I haven't noticed. I'm trying to avoid baggying up my hair too moist because I don't want my scalp getting all soggy from being wet all the time. While I want my hair to be moisturized, its important to let your hair and scalp dry. Imagine when you're in the tub too long, how pruny your fingers get. now imagine your scalp doing the same. You probably also don't want the salt deposits from sweat sitting on your head too long. that isn't scientific, that's just me. I'm not concerned really with the.salt because I find myself cowashing practically everyday. Hopefully in another week or two I'll start to notice a difference with both techniques.

Ive been combating that by focusing more on the growth aspect. Last night I baggied my head up without water, but I did massage a tiny bit of oil in my scalp.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

My baby

Ain't he cute :)

Location : 200-298 White Oak Rd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

Potty training/ hair day

Well, today, I officially began potty training my son... so far, um.. well, he peed on the floor next to the potty and dropped a turd on the floor in his room. However, he did pee in it once and he did say poopoo.. he just doesn't want to sit on the potty for some reason. If anyone has any advice or tips, I'll accept it graciously! 

Bought him some pull ups yesterday to use at daycare (along with 4 new conditioners which I will do reviews on later). Those things are such a rip off; the pull ups, not the conditioner. He's been running around here naked and so far so good. Well, good for our first day haha.

In my hair life, I used my fave hair essential, yogurt, on my head wrapped in plastic bags. In that mask I added honey, grapeseed oil, and cinnamon. The honey and cinnamon are natural hair lighteners, but I use them for other reasons. The honey is natural cleanser and humectant for moisture and the cinnamon supposedly stimulates hair growth (yep, I'm still on that kick). The grapeseed oil is a great source of vitamin e, so I thought I'd try something different from olive oil, which I personally don't see the big deal about.

I didnt wash my hair with shampoo. Just the conditioner. The yogurt and honey serve as cleansers, plus the vo5 suds up enough to be a shampoo (although, it is sulfate and cone free, and curly girl friendly). Hopefully my son will be potty trained when I come back for my product review of the suave naturals.

Just a quick note before I go: my hair is so much more clumpy. I haven't noticed my hair being anymore moisturized, but its only the first week of me jumping on the curly girl bandwagon. I really hope this method works for me. I'd love for my curly bits to be more apparent and my afro textured hair to not be so frizzy and dry.

Location : 243 White Oak Rd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!