Update: September 1

I don't know my last update but quite a bit has been going on. My weight loss has been slow and my hair journey sporadic.

I'm down to 160 from, I think, 183 size I first noticed myself getting fatter. I do plan on continuing to lose weight until I just can't lose anymore lol. Actually 145 is my goal. That is a good healthy weight, not too skinny or big. I'll be happy to see 155 right now though.

I've tried a few products which I will do reviews on including taliah waajid curly curl creme and curl sealer, eco styler gel, and some garnier products.

I just want to give a quick rant. yesterday afternoon I attempted a wash and go with eco styler gel. Um, over 12 hours later, my hair is still wet... Low porosity hair is something else. Looks like I'm going to have to invest in a diffuser.

I'll do my product reviews sometime this week. I've been working like crazy and have so much drama going on its ridiculous. If things get settled in the next couple of months I might post a video or two. I'm probably not going to do any tutorials because I all don't have any real routine. I just wash it when I can, use water to moisturize during the week, condition and twist when I get a chance.. My schedule has been so busy, I'm relieved the wash and go worked out somewhat. The shrinkage I can do without as I like my hair to be big but I'll work with it.

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Week 4... plateau

I'm entering my fourth week on this whole diet thing. Here are my stats:

SW: 183
CW: 170
GW1: 160
GW 2: 145
UGW: easy and manageable

So, I've lost roughly 10 pounds since I started this thing, but I'm pretty sure it's all water weight because I don't look or feel any different. Guess I oughta start posting pictures.

I noticed since I hit 170, I can't seem to go lower. It's as if my body is clinging on to this fat for dear life! Very frustrating. Made the mistake of buying sour cream and cheddar chips, my weakness. I can ignore cakes and cookies, but chips I can't. I don't plan on buying anymore after this bag runs out. I was crabbing them so got them. Figured if that's the only junk food I ate, them I'm ok haha.

Thus week I've decided to start implementing circuit training to Mt exercise regimen. Reminds me of my days in boot camp haha.

So, the good news is I haven't gained, but I'm stuck.. I really want to get out of the 170s. After my mom died, I easily put on 20 lbs in less than 2 months, so my first goal is to get back down to a where I was, then continue on down to my pre pregnancy weight. From there, who knows. Guess I'll keep going until I'm just tired of losing. Well,.that is,.I'd I can ever get passed this plateau

Ugh,.just want to cut this fat off with a pair of scissors...

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Week 3: still doing it

I actually think week three is over, but it doesn't matter; I haven't posted anything.

I'm still dieting and made three mistake of buying a scale. I'm obsessive, do its a good and bad thing. Its good because I've grown more conscious of what I'm eating and motivated.. Its not good, because my obsessive nature kicks in and now I'm on that bitch like every 30 minutes lol. Stressful yes, but I'll take that stress. I keep it in the kitchen so I can weigh every time I'm thinking about snacking.

I've kicked up my exercise to twice a day. I don't do anything extreme. No insanity or p90x lol. I just do light aerobics, yoga, and pilates. I'm not committed enough to purchase those other programs. Sure, I may not get ripped, but I'm losing weight all the same. I find that when I jump into an exercise program fill throttle, I get bored before I really get any results, plus the more weight you lose the more you have to exercise to keep losing, so why kill myself in the beginning? No, I'll increase as I go along.

Although I am losing weight, I'm assuming its all water weight because I don't see or feel any different. I think this is typical for me. It won't be until after the second 10 that my clothes might start fitting different and I can start noticing a difference.

I'm trying to incorporate more ab and arm work. Even though I do lose most of my weight from the top first, I've never had the tone I wanted, so even at my lowest I was still embarrassed to wear short sleeved shirts. I've had a flat stomach, but not as firm as i wanted plus i still had to suck in. More especially since I've had a baby I'm gonna have to put more emphasis on toning my mid section. I naturally just have big legs, but the weight will start to fall off them at the 30lb mark so not too worried about them.

I guess at the end of week 4 I'll post my final results. I still only feel like I'm on a diet, not a lifestyle change so I'm going to have to work on that. I don't want to yo-yo back up in my weight this time. This time I want to go down and stay down.

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Week 3.... Weight loss disappointments

Well, I didn't think I was losing any weight.. Got on the scale at work and turns out I'd only lost half a pound last week.. Talk about disappointed :/. So, I think I wool have to go back to taking two Fenfast pills a day and really watch my calorie intake. I know I need top up my cardio as well.. I guess my mystery calories are coming from my drinks.. Ugh.

I downloaded a work out app yesterday which I think will do me well. It gives you a different workout every day. It counts all the minutes for you and tells you when to switch between exercises. I like it because I don't have to think for myself lol. I'm one of those people that needs coaching, even if its just a recording on a phone. So I can get my exercise in while Micah watches a DVD.. I believe it's called Daily Workout. Maybe I can start going to hot yoga soon. I'd like to sweat off more weight!

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Diet update

I'm already losing track of what week I'm in. I'm pretty sure it's still week 2. Anyway, yesterday was not a good day. I ate so much. I couldn't help myself! I didn't take that Fenfast pull thinking maybe I could just skip it and perhaps, along with the ketones, it is helping control my cravings. Be it a placebo affect, or that it's proprietary blend is ad it states, it seems to be working in some way.

I haven't noticed any more weight loss, but I won't know for sure until I get on the scale. I will be very disappointed if not even a pound is lost. My belly seems to be just as big as it ever was and the cellulite on my butt is still there. I know is a little early to be expecting those improvements, but I like fast results lol.

I started doing a 30 day squat challenge. Let me just say, it is harder than it sounds. Today is 75 squats, but I could barely get thru the 70 yesterday. I break mine up into intervals throughout the day, but even that feels tedious. I know I need to; I'm jeopardy of losing my ass here!

Tuesday I went for a 4mi powerwalk. My legs are killing me. Mainly in my shins. I haven't walked that far or hard since I went thru basic training! I'm planning to go again, but unfortunately it's raining, so I don't want to take Micah in all of that, plus I have my hair up in these twists and they're still wet (used that dark and lovely Au naturale defining glaze... Sigh).

I do still plan on doing some pilates today. I feel less motivated to do it now that I know it doesn't burn that many calories. A 30 minute work out only burns about 120 calories. Doesn't that just hurt your feelings. It's a great work out though. Really helps to tone and strengthen muscles, which I suppose in the long run burns a lot of calories. My weight isn't necessarily the party that bothers me, it's the actual shape of my body and the way my clothes fit. I can live without a lot of weight loss if I can lose the fat and get back into my jeans comfortably lol

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Weight loss journey, week 2: raspberry ketones

I feel like I've been dieting for longer than a week.. I don't know why this time is so hard, but it is.

On a positive more, someone brought in fresh baked doughnuts, but I made it out of the building without even a lick! I'm not really a sweets person, but soft, warm, freshly baked glazed fights are hard to pass up! I'm feeling accomplished.

I've lost 2 or 3 lbs this weeks, which makes me happy. I honestly do not believe the weight loss is from the Fenfast 375 diet pills I started taking nearly 2 weeks ago. However, the raspberry ketones may be the culprit.

From what I have read online, there had been no human study of raspberry ketones, but in rats it did show fat burning abilities. I've come across, not many, but testimonials for different raspberry ketone products unfortunately not many for just the plain supplement like I'm taking. The reviews are about half in half negative to positive, and a few neutral (no weight loss). The positive results are promising: quick weight loss and appetite suppression, which is what you desire in a diet supplement: fast results for what you're using them for. The negative results though are quite alarming. I'd type a skeptic about anything, you should most definitely read ALL sides of the ketones argument. Well, really everyone should. The adverse reactions to the ketones are pretty serious, even sending done people to the emergency room mainly for high blood pressure. If you have high blood pressure, I strongly recommend you NOT try raspberry ketones. I am NOT a doctor or nutritionist, but friend to friend, this is probably not a smart thing to do.

Most of the people taking the raspberry ketones supplement, I've noticed, are taking a brand of done sort marketed towards weight loss. I wonder if these people with the negative results are taking a general, plain supplement or the diet pills. The problem with purchasing the weight loss marketed pills vs. the pure ketones, besides bring overpriced, is many of those pills are quickly constructed in labs simply to keep up with the fad. Some of them, such as those from internet companies, may have filler products in them to "stretch the batch" so to speak. Some are scams which you don't know what is actually in the pill (like with this Fenfast 375).

I would not suggest taking the ketones that are combined with other substances because you won't know what in the supplement is causing the adverse reaction if you come to have negative results. There are a lot of ketone diet pills that suddenly sprang up after the Dr Oz episode, so outers hard to know what's what. I would check out your local vitamin and health store for a pure version of the raspberry ketones. I bought mine from Walmart for like 5 bucks because I'm cheap and I didn't want to lose another 50 bucks for something that may not even work (ehem, Fenfast 375).

I don't believe I'm going to order another bottle of the Fenfast 375, I am, however, going to finish the bottle I bought just in case it is helping me to lose weight. About 2 weeks in and I don't really feel ad if it is offering me what I want in a weight loss supplement. I don't feel any appetite suppression, in fact I was snacking just as much before I started the raspberry ketones; and I hate taking that big pill 30 minutes before eating because then I'm sitting there waiting to eat. I like taking the raspberry ketones because they're smaller and in capsules so they're easier to swallow, I only need to take one and WITH a meal (I take one to two with each meal that I remember to), and they're a lot cheaper and can be bought at the pharmacy vs a sketchy online website. I feel between the ketones and watching my intake with the Noom weight management app, I'll do well to lose some weight.

Well, time for some pilates, then I need to wash my hair. Just got two new conditioners that I think work well together and with the Evercurl products.

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Weight loss

Well, I've been taking that Fenfast 375 twice a day for a couple weeks, I think. I dunno, check my last post to see how long its been. Anyway, I really can't tell if I've lost any weight yet. I haven't been exercising like I need to either though. I still have an issue with snacking in the evening though, so the appetite suppression doesn't seem today long I guess..

Recently I started taking raspberry ketones although I have read a lot of not so positive reviews. Its half good and half really bad. I haven't had any adverse reactions so far and they have been helping me not snack in the evenings, so even if they didn't burn any actual fat, they will have helped me cut some unnecessary calories. I like them because I don't have to wait 30 minutes to eat; I can take them with juice and with a meal. If I had to choose only one supplement to take, it would be the raspberry ketones. They are much smaller and come in capsule form, making them easy to swallow.

I downloaded an app called Noom to help me keep track of what I'm eating and the calories I burn. I'm hoping by posting to Facebook, I'll feel more motivated to compete work outs you know with people watching me lol. I'm only allowed 1200 calories a day which is actually harder to do than I thought. I felt lie I'm a healthy eater, but I see I'm definitely consuming more calories than I expected.

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Update on hair practices

So, here I am in my hair journey. I've berm using that Loreal evercurl system and I like it. I mean, I don't use a lot of products to compare it, but it smells nice, makes my hair soft and feels pretty moisturized.

However, I do wish it gave me more frizz control, but I think that's just the problem with short hair because my ends are showing. When I twist then, my ends are frayed and yes I've tried trimming them. Doesn't help. I'll just have to wait until it gets longer. The length of my hair is fairly smooth and has sheen, but I won't see it for a while.

I've started taking msm with my daily supplement. It's only been a couple of weeks so I can't tell if ours doing anything yet. I think my nails do feel stronger and I have noticed less hair going down the drain. I'd love it if it would clear up my skin though. Starting to do yogurt masks for that, which seemingly made my acne worse yesterday. Anyway, that's a different blog altogether.

I'm thinking of adding horsetail or bamboo silica to my supplements as well. Probably the horsetail. It's cheaper and readily available at Walmart or the pharmacy.

Yes I know hair growth requires patience, but nothing wrong with trying lol. Why not give my head a boost for a few more inches by summer?

Other than this, I'm still pretty low maintenance when it comes to my hair. I wash it once a week then flat twist it. I've started Cowashing in the middle of the week to keep my hair looking fresh, but might start cutting that out. I'm just really lazy and don't want to do any more than I need to lol.

One last thing. I was conditioning my hair under the dryer last night and added oil to my hair.. Detangling has never been an issue for me, unless I use oil! Ugh, I thought I was going to have to cut my hair! If I ever decide to do a hot oil treatment again, sometime slap me. I'm afraid to untwist my hair today because of the amount of knotting I had last night... I will be do mad if I have to cut my hair.

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Get right, get tight.

Ok, do summer is right around the corner so time to get serious about losing weight.

A couple months back, I'd started using Lipozene, unfortunately that stuff didn't do much but make me poop. I didn't really feel the energy noisy that I wanted and needed to get motivated. I won't say I am clinically depressed, but it has been harder and harder to get motivated since my mom passed.. As my waistline expands though, I know its time to get on it before I get too ridiculous.

I know diet pills are not the solution, but if you have trouble losing weight and keeping the energy needed to exercise like I do, you know the right I one can help. When my ex left, he left behind his Metabolife. I tried them and I actually think they made me gain weight. I had a very nasty feeling on them. Like I needed to be cleaned from the inside out or something. Its hard to explain.. Well, I didn't stay on them long because like I said, I felt nasty and bloated as if I was gaining weight, the opposite of what I want.

There are a few diet pills I've had success on, one being Phentermine. The first time I took it, I lost quite a bit of weight easily, it helped me get into a fitness routine and help with a healthy diet. I was able to keep the weight off after getting off of them until I got pregnant and gained 70lbs.

After I had my son and finished breastfeeding, I went from 210 to 180/90 on my own.. Not enough. I went back to the diet doctor and was able to get down to 165 using Phentermine and trying to run and exercise again. I had to get pdf them though because I ran out of money lol.

I don't know my exact weight, but last I checked I was 177, so we'll say 180. Its been a couple of years now since I used it. These passed few months, I haven't been exercising and find myself snacking uncontrollably, not on chips and candy, but snacking nonetheless.

This time around, I chose a different pill to get me started on losing weight. I found something called Fenfast 375, which claims to be an alternative to Phentermine. I couldn't find too many reviews for it, but I found the product on Amazon, so I ordered it there to avoid being scammed into an automatic renewal system and all that. If it works, then I'll order it again.

I didn't choose Phentermine again, mostly out of embarrassment lol. It would be my third time going in for these pills and I don't feel like listening to a lecture about weight loss. I know how I've gained weight and know pills are not an easy fix, but the right one does make it easier for you to reach your goal.

So, I've already taken one this morning before doing some exercise. I will say, I don't feel jittery which is one of the promises it makes. I feel hungry, but I don't want to eat. Appetite suppression is also one of the claims. Mood enhancement is another, but I will have update on that later.

I'll give it a week to see how things work before I update again. People have claimed topple up to 8lbs in a week, so my goal is 5, although I'll be happy with 3.

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My thumb ain't green, but maybe brown is good enough

Got my garden done.. Mostly done. Not the best thing ever, but is mine. May as well make the best of my situation and take advantage of this yard, since I'm suck in this house :/.

I put down some sweet and cayenne pepper, honey dew, watermelon, spaghetti squash, and I've got peas and more peppers in my patio box.. I bought Micah one of those hanging strawberry plant bags, so we'll see if that thing grows at all. I how it does for 6 bucks.

I plan to grow some herbs too: cilantro, basil, sage, and lavender. I might try some dill too, but I'm not sure what I'd make with it. I dunno how to pickle anything lol.

Well, bedtime here. Night night!

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The girl next door.

So, my search for a roommate is on. I've had a few people call and fewer come by to look. One woman is actually staying for the weekend. Yes, its a little strange for a woman I don't know to be sleeping in the room next to my sons, but she paid me 50 bucks and I need every cent I can get. She offered to babysit which is super nice, but I think I'm doing enough having her stay a couple days.... You never know. I can't afford for my baby to get stolen. I've had enough shit happen this year...

If she doesn't show back up next week looking for a place to stay, my search will continue. Really wish the sugar daddy thing would have taken off. I could use one about now, just to pay my utilities... And a few other amenities.

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Mango butter and bentonite clay

For the past fee Wells, I've been using bentonite clay in my hair a my deep conditioner. I mix it with yogurt and honey, my typical deep conditioner.

I suppose my results are ok. I haven't done a wash and go with it so I can't tell the true results.

I keep the mask on my hair for about an hour, usually under my hooded dryer. After I rinse, I do a quick condition and detangle with herbal essences rose hip or whatever from their original collection. Ice never really had an issue with knots, even now as my hair is getting longer, so I can't tell if the clay helps with that. If you read on other blogs, however, people claim it does.

I've started twisting my hair on wash day (which is once a week when I feel like it). Although I have low porosity hair, I now seal my hair with my own hair butter. The dark and lovely one I bought worked ok, I just wanted to use a more natural hair dressing. I mixed together mango butter, sweet almond oil, olive oil, water, and vitamin e oil. There are also some essential oils typo, but I forgot which. I believe rose oil is one though.

Anyway, I don't like to use a lot of oil because it makes my hair super greasy. My hair will not absorb oils and butters, but I still use it to make twisting easier. Also, by the second day my hair is less oily. By the end of the week, my hair is still soft using the mango butter.. My concoction is still a work in progress. I need to find a way to make it more fluffy and light, without adding a lot more oil.. Perhaps more water and honey.

Now that I have a new phone, which I had to go thru much suffering to get, I will try to keep posting in case someone somewhere out there wants to read what I write.

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The next chapter....

Well, some quick background: I met a guy, my mom died, got a house with the guy, he left while I was at work and now I have a pile of bills to pay. I'm not at all mad that he's gone, only that I wasted so much time and energy, and believed he might actually care for me.. Helped him find a job, let him use my car for months and he practically live for free while I cooked, cleaned, and took care of him :/. Pretty stupid on my part. I opened up a phone line for him which he did not cancel like he was supposed to... My blood boils a bit each time I think of that....

So, now I'm living in a 3 bedroom house I don't need and probably can't afford, but I also can't afford to move. I pay God will smite his ass, but I doubt it. No one that ever crosses me gets the punishment I see befitting..

I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but I refuse to let this hold me down. Going to talk to my landlord and hippie they can do something, like send him a bill. I very much doubt that too, but maybe they'll feel some sympathy and let me move into a smaller property or something... Gonna hate to pack all this shit back up though.....

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Where I've been...

I haven't been updating for the past couple of months for two reasons: 1) my mother died February 15... 2) I lost the battery to my phone while travelling to her funeral.

I have a new phone (unlocked). but I can't really do anything with it i.e. YouTube, Blogger, send/receive media messages.

For a while, I wasn't doing very much with my hair. I just couldn't find the time or energy, but with the loss of a parent a lot of things don't seem very important.

Last week, though, I started back on my natural hair journey. My hair is about 3 or 4 inches now, so I'm starting to relearn how to twist it. I was going to attempt finger coils, but quickly remembered how lazy I am :/.

My hair was very dry for a while, so I started deep conditioning again with yogurt and honey. I've decided with low porous hair, the curly girl method is not for me. I've modified it some; still avoiding cones and sulfates as much as possible. I'm considering trying rhassoul clay to replace shampoo once or twice a month, but I'm on the fence about that.

Currently, my regimen is still simple (naturally, haha): Once per week I use a baking soda mix to raise the cuticle layer of my hair, then I use conditioner (herbal essences smooth collection (the rose one from their old school selection)) to detangle, after that I put on my yogurt/honey hair mixture on my hair then sit under the dryer for like an hour or until I get tired of sitting, after rinsing the yogurt I add either the herbal essences or mane and tail conditioner to wet hair as a leave in then cover with a towel. I just got that naturals product by dark and lovely, which I use to twist my hair up. You know the one with the orange top promising no shrinkage and blah blah blah.. It leaves my hair feeling a little oily, but by the second day my hair is alright. I'll probably continue looking for a new product for twisting. During the week, I just cover with a satin scarf. My hair generally keeps its definition for a few days. This week, I'm going to start cowashing then retwisting in the middle of the week.

I know this update is pretty unorganized and informal, but hey, aren't they all? haha. I'll try to post pictures soon of my hair as I'm coming up on my year mark since my last relaxer. I'm pretty sure it was in May... or perhaps it was March?? hmm, wither way, I'll have some pictures up soon.

Single mother rant...

So, despite my spending half my paychecks each week, Micah lost his enrollment at his daycare (thankfully my mom paid some of it to get him back in).. my electric, water, and phone bills are coming up due but all of my money has been tied up with Micah's expenses.. everything I earn goes to him. I'm so frustrated right now because all of my pleas for help have been ignored, yet I'm the bad guy... I just wanna scream. I work and trying to go to school to have a better life; I'm raising 2yr old on my own - how am I trying to skrew him over?? Please, someone tell me how I, the parent in poverty that can barely afford juice for my son, is trying to "skrew over" anyone over, especially a man that gets paid more money for a child he resents. I'm just trying to survive! I can't survive off nothing.  This isn't back in the day when gas was cheap, the neighborhood grandma watched the kids for nothing, and bubble gum costed 5¢! Life is expensive; babies are expensive.

Am I wrong for expecting the father of my child, who makes significantly more than I do, to help pay his share?? The same man that left me while I was unemployed and pregnant, ignored me when I reached out to him, chose not to come spend time with his son until the possibility of higher child support was brought to his attention, originally took me to court to get out of paying child support, tried to trick me into signing over custody of our son to him by forging a document to submit to court by saying he can't get BAH if he doesn't and will give me the money, lies to everyone, and who tries to make himself out to be some sort of victim in all this mess? That man?

He complains that he's broke. He gang pay child support because he now has you pay rent and a car payment and other bills. What about my bills? My rent? The fact that I can't het groceries got out child to eat. If those were worries of his, he should have stayed in the barracks. I didn't tell him to get a new car or to get an apartment. Why should I care when this same man walked away from his son while he was screaming and crying to be picked up while I was cooking. Its funny that he expected me to sign over custody for money. I can't even rely on him to pay it with a court order.

I just needed to vent.

I'm so ready for the next chapter because this one sucks..

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Lipozene: third week

In my last review, I talked about my initial experience with lipozene to include the shitting my pants episode. I'm now done with one bottle of lipozene and starting the next tomorrow.

So, I skipped a few doses and started eating some carbs, you know, to make my poop form so I could stop peeing out of my butt lol. That seems to have worked. I haven't had a good bowel movement in a couple of days, that I can remember but I'm starting to feel a little bloated, so we'll see....

Speaking of bloating, I want to point out that for the first couple of weeks I really didn't want to eat anything due to the nausea and lack of appetite, but for the past couple of days, it seems I can't stop eating! I need to say, though, I've had a lot going on so stress is probably playing a part in all that, or my body trying to nurish (spelling?) itself after being starved and dehydrated for a couple of weeks.

I also want to mention that I really haven't bern exercising, at all. I do feel lipozene would help me lose more weight if I was actually engaging in some type of cardio. I will, eventually... lol. I don't expect a diet pill to do all the work; I know there's no miracle weight loss solution, but I will not hide the fact that I am lazy and tired. Once I get back into the groove of things, I'll be well on my way to being a sexy mama. MILF status, here I come! Lol!

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Flat iron.....

I dunno why, but my flat iron was really calling my name tonite. I wanted to wait until I was a year in, but thought I'd just try it out.

Let me just say, I'm not even halfway thru and I now remember why i cut it in the first place. My arms hurt and I was very bored.

A few notes: definitely should have bothered to detangle beforehand. My ends are a bit knotty. Next time, i will try washing and blow drying too before I attempt this again. The top half is pretty smooth, but the ends are looking rather frayed. The "curls" settled at the bottom where I was holding it straight so the heat just glided over them.

I used grapeseed oil as a protectant, because I didn't have anything else.

I won't say this was a fail, just incomplete since I didn't even finish. I'll try it again in a few days. Maybe. I'll put some rollers in for the finish. My hair still, obviously is not at the length I want so maybe I won't bother with it for a few months.

I may try twisting it tonite though after I wash my hair. I do need to practice flat twisting.

..............

Nah. Wash and go, you are my friend lol

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Lipozene

I recently put on 15lbs, which is opposite of the direction I want to go. Weighing in at 178, I had to get serious about losing weight. I refuse to be huge.

While I do know what it takes to lose weight, I opted for the "easy" way. I saw a 2fer pack of lipozene for 20 which is why I picked it up at walmart over the hydroxycut.

Anyway, I can definitely say this stuff is curbing my appetite. Not only do I not want to eat in my mind, but food itself makes me nauseas no matter how hungry I am. I do feel like I have slightly more energy as well.

I honestly believe lipozene has helped me to lose 3lbs last week, however, its not without side effects.. the slight anxiety is a nuisance, the nausea is a little off putting and the unbelievably toxic gas can be polluting.. these though are all barable. The real complaint, the issue I just cannot deal with, the one thing that may force me to toss these pills to the wind is: the unpredictable bowel incontinence!! I have shit myself like 3times!! Twice last night in bed :/... I mean, its usually following a long round of fogger, but that ain't good.

Are 3lbs really worth shitting myself?? I just don't know... I am desperate to lose weight, but am I really? I wear white pants at work.... that won't end well.

I'm in my second week of taking lipozene. I've definitely lowered my dosage to 2 per day vs the instructed 6 capsules (2 capsules 30 minutes before meals, up to 3 times per day, although the most I took was 4).. I even skip days just so that I can eat and get relief from the bloating, cramps and poisonous farts. 

I'm thinking about it, hard. More than half of this blog was typed up from my bathroom during another episode of violent diarrhea. I will say this much, if you try the lipozene, invest in a butt plug or depends and always stay within 2yds of a toilet lol. People that say these pills don't work couldn't have been taking the same ones as I am: not only can I not eat, I've been shitting out anything that does happen to enter my mouth almost immediately.

I'll update more on this, be it that I quit taking them or ran to my local pharmacy for some padded protection lol.

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Twist out 2

Ok, I flat twisted my hair last night. My results were less than stellar. I wore it though, all day. I didn't use any product when I twisted it, but I did rub a little of the curling souffle over it after it was loose to help with some of the frizz.

I have a party to go to tomorrow. I dunno if I should attempt this again or just bare the twa..  my arms were hurting last night and its not long enough in the back. I dunno if its worth fooling with again

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Style attempts

Ok, I've just attempted to flat twist my hair since my big chop. The top I actually had no issues with, but the back was still a little too short. If I were more patient, I could probably do some tiny two-strand twists, but chunky is fastest.

After my experience with the Shea moisture on my two strand twists a couple blog entries ago, I didn't use anything on my hair. Just my suave naturals everlasting sunshine (my new leave in conditioner).

Speaking of suave naturals. I'm considering bringing some cones back into my "regimen", which right now consists of cowashing then adding a bit of gel. I dunno though. The "no poo" thing is going pretty well. My moisture level is pretty good, breakage isn't a huge problem and neither are knots.

Perhaps if I change it to low poo. Shampooing once a month. I can't not wet my hair everyday. I tried it for a week... oh, update to that week challenge in the next blog.

Might be next weeks challenge: Using cones

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Potty training

Micah is home potty trained, mostly. He will use the potty at home, but not anywhere else.

Just a few moments ago, Micah sat on the potty to go peeped.. I'm so proud of him. Unfortunately, he doesn't know how to pull his pants down yet :/. We're getting there. That's what's important.

Go team Micah! Lol.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
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First twist out since Big Chop

What a disaster! I have since put a headband on my head, but this is definitely a wash out situation.

I just wanted to try styling my hair. I was getting bored with current fro and was remembering my big curly fros from when I was transitioning. "This will be nice", I thought naively... I did this number on dry hair (I'm on a new week challenge of not drenching my hair every day). I just misted it with water and suave naturals everlasting sunshine (my new staple) then tried sealing with Shea moisture curling souffle..

Granted, my hair felt smoother, softer and moisturized, it also (still) feels like a sticky mess. I feel like I have less definition than when I let it dry loose. I will say, there were hardly any knots while taking the twists out.

In any case, this style is going on the back burner. For a while. I need more length for this to do and look like what I want. Also, definitely using less, if any, of the curling souffle. My hair literally feels like I poured pancake syrup over it.  Next time I wash, I may attempt a flat twist. Gonna have to look up kinkycoilycurlyme's youtube videos.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

Benedryl, wow

I've had these itchy bumps on my body for a few months. I went to the doctor and got prescribed some antibiotics. They haven't worked, so I decided to try benedryl. I have no clue if it helped with my itching; that stuff knocked me out so hard, I think I was just too tired to wake up to scratch.

If nothing else, that stuff is a powerful sleep aid! I was afraid I wouldnt wake up for work today lol. Probably the best sleep I've had in a long while.. since I was still itching this morning though, I guess.I'll have to go back to the doc :/. Hope I don't have to wait 4 and a half hours next time though 

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9:30pm

I'm not doing the baggy thing tonite because one) I don't feel like it; and two) because I've noticed my hair is hard eight now. I know, I should put the bag on because my hair is hard, but I think its due to too much oil. I've done 3 hot oil treatments this week. This last one I used conditioner over it, but my hair seems less moisturized.. no, that's not what I'm looking for. Its just super fuzzy, not soft with a little frizz.

So, anyway, not doing it, hut I think its been about a week anyway, so, good challenge, good challenge.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

9:15pm

I keep pulling on my hair.. time cannot grow hair fast enough. 6 more inches...  6inches from now, I'll be wanting 6 more lol.

Twist outs, flat twists, ponytails, cornnrows... I just cannot wait. I'm getting so anxious! Lol

In other news, this Megamind movie: hilarious!

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11pm..

I had a date. Amazed? I am lol.

I don't talk much about dating or relationships because, in my case, there isn't much to say. I'm still dealing with "baby daddy drama" BS and really haven't met anyone worth talking about. There is one guy I really like, but due to his personal and emotional issues right now, I've been thrown under the friend bus. Every time he says "I'm glad I have a friend like you", that bus runs right over my chest and breaks my heart just a little.

So, instead of waiting and following him around like a pathetic puppy, I will be his friend who is dating other people. The date was alright. He was kinda cute, tall, kinda funny, good body from what I could see. I'm not sure if its just because my feelings are so strong for someone else but I didn't really feel any romantic feelings. I will definitely go out with him again if he asks though. Its not often a genuinely nice guy comes around. Never know what can become. Plus, he knew up front my hair is short and natural. Accepting that is a definite plus.

I'm laying here now with my plastic bags and knitted cap on my oiled head. I feel silly but forgetting about patience, I want my long hair back! Lol. Its getting there. Hopefully I'll see some inches in another couple of months. I'm thinking for my 1yr no relaxer anniversary I'm going to flat iron my hair. I do like my nappy hair, but I do kinda miss my "blow in the wind type hair" as a classmate of mine once called it.

Well, bedtime. I'm tired and got stuff to do in the morning.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!

Snafoo..

So, went to wash my hair after the 9hr hot oil treatment and wow. My hair was so full of knots!! I just watched as bits and bits of my hair flowed down the drain. Took me FOREVER to detangle my hair.. any growth I was getting is gone with all that breakage :/

Ok. While I'm not going to give up on the daily hot oil treatment, I will not be doing the ghe method with oil overnight. After this little fiasco, I'm not even going to risk it!

Well, off to work.. can't believe I agreed to work night shift. Been laying here awake trying to get a nap, nut of course now that its time to get up I can feel myself wanting to drift to sleep. Figures... smh.

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I have an idea (in a sing-song voice)

Ok, the other day I was in the CurkyNikki.com hair forum (DanielleToday) and I was inquiring if anyone was doing the curly girl and the ghe at the same time. In all this time of doing the ghe, I haven't noticed any significant amount of growth. One respondent informed me I'm supposed to use oil with the ghe method (although, I strongly believe its optional).

Anyway, that's when I had the brilliant idea to do a hot oil treatment everyday. Excessive? Maybe so. I'm going to commit to this for one week to see my results. Its basically what the ghe method is apparently. Putting oils on your hair and scalp then covering with a great amount heat. I really am too lazy to remember to baggy my hair every night, so I'll use the hooded dryer during the day to compensate for my laziness.

Right now I'm sitting here with the queen helene cholesterol hot oil, olive and grapeseed oils in my hair. I am getting itchy around my hairline. Not sure shy I put it on so early (12:30.... yea). I have to work 3rd shift tonite so I wasn't thinking I guess. I'm still not entirely sure what cholesterol does for hair, despite my research. I'm nervous my hair is gonna turn out crunchy again. Although, the original crunch was due to the creme of nature conditioning treatment (never again!!).

I'm actually on day 2 of this hot oil challenge. Week 4 day something with the curly girl method. Hopefully this will give some great results.

Location : 2403-2423 Wilma Rudolph Blvd, Clarksville, TN 37040,
holysht, that's me!